So much going on...

So right now, I have so much going on my head is literally spinning! Jaycee has been with us for a little over a week, and I am loving every minute of having her. She has been sick the past few days, so getting up in the middle of the night has been tough, but we've actually been doing really well with it. I find myself waking up easily, which is strange, cuz I have always been the deepest sleeper on the face of the planet.

My mothering nature is kicking in big time. I wash bottles at night, pack her bags, organize laundry. It's actually a lot of fun! We are setting up a make-shift nursery for her for a while so she can be more comfortable. I have gotten TONS of donations from people at work for clothes, diapers, etc. It is amazing the response I've gotten. We have a baby bed and a port a crib, and a pack n play from a family friend. Can you believe this? We have so much... it's so great. Some other people at work are getting gift cards, clothes, etc. I mean, wow.

On another note, Chris joined a men's slow-pitch softball team this week. His first game is.. get this.. MONDAY! This coming Monday! Geez, Louise! We still have to find some cleats. We bought a glove tonight (yep, 30 bucks--so much money being spent and no more than normal coming in). I'm glad he's trying something new, though. It should prove to be very interesting, to say the least. =)

And finally, I've joined Liberty's Biggest Loser. We weigh in on Monday, and then the person who loses the most weight gets the pot, which is up to $560 dollars. We have 7 weeks- final weigh in is May 19. You can bet I want to win this money!!!!!! Wish me luck!

An urgent need for someone

Today, a million things seem to be going through my head at once. A family friend who is the young mother of a 9 month old girl, just found out she is pregnant. She is single, and she has very little money. She does well with what she has, and she has a lot of help from my sister-in-law (who serves as her only family). She just recently found out she was pregnant again (no father in the picture, for either child). Today, she went to the doctor and found out she has a condition (not sure of the name of it right now) that could possibly kill her and the unborn baby. The condition is so serious, that she is going to a lawyer to put me and Chris as the guardians of Jaycee and the unborn child (if the child makes it). I am overwhelmed right now. Jaycee is a beautiful, bright-eyed little girl, full of life and energy. I would love to welcome her to my home if necessary, but I feel so terrible for the mom. I mean... to know that she could lose her life from this condition. I am trying to look on the positive side, but even she isn't very hopeful right now that she will make it through this. I am just a little ... well taken aback that she asked for us to parent her child/ren. Honored... but I hope that she is here to raise her children herself, as she deserves to have these children and care for them and love them.

Oh geez.... what a situation... please pray for her and her family!

And of course, all I can think about... what do I need to be ready for? Do I have the furniture and items to care for this baby? Will I be able to take care of her the way she needs? Lord, I'm going to lose my mind already.

Just an update...

Tonight, I went to my first PCOS Meetup at Barnes and Noble. I was happy that several people showed up, but disappointed that still very few showed up from the group. I connected with a few people tonight, especially because so many of us have so much in common.

I am hopeful that this will spring up new friendships and support that I am missing in my life.

I am so glad to also know that I'm not the only one who feels the way I do about this stupid life-long condition.

Oh, and I have a doctor's appointment on Thursday with a new doctor. I am going to talk to him about all of my medications, getting back on track, and regulating every thing. I am hell bent on getting this stuff straight, and I think it is really going to help since it's just one doctor handling all my medication, instead of 3 doctors handling four to five meds.

It's spring break, so I'm sure I'll come up with more to talk about later.

So yeah

so yeah... I went out last night for the first time in over a year. I had an absolute blast. I feel so great today; I'm not stressing, I'm not worried, I'm not angry. I'm relaxed and calm, and it is a great feeling. I got to dance and sing the night away, which are two of my favorite things to do. Minus the fact that I still have a ringing in my right ear, and I got burned by a cigarette, and I had a nosebleed on the way home... lol alcohol still solved my problems last night.

I am going to make myself a promise that I'm going to have more fun. Laughter is the best medicine to some, but DANCING is the best to me! I really, really enjoy dancing. My husband isn't a fan of it, but he went along with it last night. I think he knew how much I really truly needed last night.

I am going to the doctor in a week. This is a new doctor, and this doctor should be able to help me out a lot better than the old one. My best friend, Jessica, works at this new doctor, and she will always make sure I'm well taken care of. This doctor will also keep track of all my medicine so I don't have to go to 3 different doctors when I need medicine or check ups.

Well, that's all that's going on right now...